I don’t think I really went to sleep last night (I didn’t dream and I always dream). I don’t think I woke up either. I felt like I was watching myself from the outside. Lots of grey. I went for a long walk after school today. I remembered all the street names. I bought a bunch of things. Retail therapy I guess. I bought a map of the world and a book of poetry. I bought face wash. I bought chocolate and two art pens. I feel better, but it was probably the time alone combined with fresh air. On my way back I stopped and peeked into the window of a classic guitar store. The clerk was closing up and we made some pretty hot eye contact. He was cute, but so was the banjo in the window.